Assalamu alaikum warahmatullah wabarakatuh,
My sister was flicking through the T.V channels late one night and she left it on a horror movie called the Exorcist. I particularly don’t like horror movies because I believe they romantasize paranormal activity and give it all a ‘Hollywood’ feel; they make unseen personalities appear more frightful than they really are. Regardless, I watched a few minutes of it and I briefly saw a young girl’s face contorted in pain and anger, she was screaming in a raspy manly voice. It looked disgusting. I looked away, almost laughing to myself, thinking things like this cannot be possible. I had a very vague idea about Jinns but knew nothing about true possession or its sickness. Also, a young girl flying upside down across her ceiling? With blood spurting from her mouth? Very unrealistic. Possibly entertaining, but very unrealistic. Upon reflection, I feel that the sensationalisation of ghosts and goblins in horror movies has unneccessarily engraved fear in our hearts about the world of the Unseen. So when we hear of someone being possessed we can instantly jump in fear and compare it to what happens in horror movies.
So going back to the room where my Sister and I were having Ruqya. I am hesitant to write about this as I do know that many people are sceptical of Jinn possession and how it works. However, many evidences prove that Jinn possession is real.
‘Abd-Allah ibn al-Imam Ahmad ibn Hanbal said: “I said to my father, ‘There are some people who say that the jinn do not enter the body of the epileptic.’ He said: ‘O my son, they are lying; the jinn could speak through this person.’”
Commenting on this, Ibn Qudamah said: “What he said is well known, because a person may suffer an epileptic seizure and speak in a language that no one understands, and his body may be beaten with blows that would fell a camel, but the epileptic does not feel them at all, and he is also unaware of the words he is saying. The epileptic and others may be dragged about, or the carpet on which he is sitting may be pulled, and utensils may be moved about from place to place, and other things may happen. Anyone who witnesses such a thing will know for sure that the one who is speaking through the person and moving these things is not human.”*1
Likewise I am certain of this fact: during that Ruqya session, a Jinn SPOKE through me. Undeniably it was my voice, but I did not have control over what I was saying (or I had yet to learn how to control my body from being used by the Jinn- I will speak about this later). It was as if being in a semi conscious state while watching yourself speak and behave, without your mind telling it to behave like that. Like a helpless puppet being pulled by strings. I felt drugged and slightly intoxicated. I felt like I was in a semi dreamlike state- except this was my worst nitemare. This voice from me was screaming ‘Stop reciting that surah! Stop it. Stop it. I hate it’. The raqi was reciting Ayatul Kursi at the time. Subhanallah, the power of these ayaat are beyond our comprehension. I wish to tell you all to hold these verses close your heart, like the company of a dear companion on a lonely day. It will get you through the darkest of days.
Because the Jinn inside of me was getting more aggravated, the Raqi told me to step outside of the room. Before I could get up however, I heard one of the Sisters begin to laugh hysterically.
It was room full of possessed people remember? Turns out a Jinn inside of her found all of this funny. Shayateen from the Jinn are quite immature in nature. The Raqi told us both to stand in the hallway, away from the rest of the group. I was still ‘possessed’ at the time so the Jinn inside of me was wimpering and crying like a child being told off. The Raqi shouted at the Jinn and asked why it was possessing my body. At first the Jinn continued to cry and repeatedly said ‘I don’t know, I don’t know’. The Raqi began to recite again until the Jinn said this:
‘ She was fed magic and that is why I am here.’
‘Who fed her?’.
‘Her Mother fed it to her by mixing it in some rice. The bad man said t-to do it’.
Shayateen are known to be liars and we are told not to trust what they say. But still, when I heard these words, I felt my heart crumbling. The Jinn continued on to say a ‘bad man’ made my Mother put something in my rice and that is why it possessed me. It followed the magic to me. The Raqi told the Jinn that it is haram to possess a Muslim and that it should leave. Wimpering and crying the Jinn said it wanted to leave because it was burning. The Raqi then gave the Jinn dawah and reasoned that if this book (the Quran) is harming you then can you not see the power of Allah, the One true God? Where is Iblis? Is he saving you now? And so the Raqi continued reasoning with it until the Jinn agreed to take the shahadah and become Muslim. The Raqi then demanded the Jinn to leave my body and suddenly I felt…a whoosh of air slide through my shoulder, down my left leg and my toes curled. It was a strong pulling feeling like an invisible person pulling and pushing at me- it’s not something easy to describe. Afterwards I felt like I was myself again and I breathed a sigh of relief.
But then I felt my lungs constrict and my throat close and I thought to myself ‘that sneeky little Jinn hasn’t left at all’.